i don't know who reads my blog anymore... if you have comments or questions, please e-mail me at cute_chi2000@yahoo.com

anyway...

i've been going through an emotional roller coaster recently. i don't understand what i'm feeling anymore. it seems i'm always afraid of losing my relationship. the first and only guy i've ever loved. i don't know why i've been feeling like that.

maybe i've just been used to him being around most of the time... recently, he's been busy with work and computer games. somehow, i feel i don't have a part in that. i feel stupid sometimes when he has to explain concepts of the game...

i think my life's a mess... my room's a mess... my mom's advice that a messy room equates a messy mind and a messy life must be true...

somehow, i feel i'm not as part of his life as i was before. maybe i'm just being paranoid. what's wrong with me?