aaahhh... fresh new day...

procrastination does things to you... makes you late... makes you haggard... but pushes you to the brinks of creativity... lesson learned, when you're off somewhere in a rush, people (mostly family) will find ways to delay you.

had a fun evening. was with friends... too bad wasn't able to see MiloThatch... he's been sad lately... painful truth sinking in... i'm sorry to see that the other party doesn't feel the same way... but, then again, who hurt who, anyway, right? Milo's the nicest guy. He doesn't deserve to be hurt like that. I just wish I can talk to him soon, maybe give him a hug.

Dr.Doogie seems happy yet confused about a drink he wanted to order but never expected to get. People have been telling him what the drink is all about but he doesn't believe them. I guess he'll just believe us when he gets to taste that drink already... which i wager is within the next month.

Surgeon general's warning... too much of this drink could cause addiction.

MIss Dihiya.... was so nice... he bought me SUPER palabok...

from the abundance of the heart the mouth overflows... this was a very apt statement my baby uttered with regards to the situation we were faced with...

learned a lot last night... how someone gets manipulated... how someone's an expert in manipulation... what sniglets are... how people can be an epitome of a singlet producer...defensive statements... people defending who aren't to be defended...

for people like me who haven't heard of sniglets, well... last night i learned that it's a coined word, pertaining to how things are misinterpreted once it's uttered... like, when someone says tomato, the other person thinks to-mah-to... then, construes it into another thing.

through it all... i see strength in character, strength in the bonds of friendship, and strength in maturity.

i wish them all the best.

oh, by the way, dihiya, astro, and my bro are all in my prayers for the happy life they truly deserve...

i'm shedding my skin.... actually, i'm peeling... been peeling for the past few weeks... exposure to Taal sun, SPF-less... who cares... i got a nice tan color...

day was a bit productive yesterday... did some work... got some things done... fun fun fun.. dinner and sleepytime with my baby...i always sleep better with him around...

anyway... i got myself to thinking... why do people like being Pontius Pilate? They commit a mistake, and they completely wash their hands clear of it... while some people are self-delusional... always thinking themselves correct.... some people are both... as in this situation, the Queen Mother is self-delusional and the Queen Daughter is both self-delusional and a Pontius Pilate. Let them talk about me in public. in the end, it is their folly that will lead to their fall. The truth always prevails.

enough about their royal majesties... let's talk about someone more important... our bestfriend... my bro calls him Astroboy, so i will borrow that term and use it... Astro has been through a lot... but despite all that, he's been able to bounce back, granted it takes him a while, but he always bounces back. He's been through so many changes, yet he remains the same...

i am worried about him now... because, recently he has been a little reckless, as he admitted...i do want him to be happy... and i'll stand by him despite everything... but i guess, deep in my heart of hearts, i am wishing he will find someone else and forget about this dolt who's back... who wants him back... let's just hope the dolt's changed already.... maybe Dihiya can give astro a few pointers about dolts... then again...

Astro, we miss you :) maybe you should have a blog also, so we're more updated with your life :P

hmmm.... seems i have nothing to write... well, i do... but some things i cannot write because i am sworn to secrecy...

after hearing from dihiya and reading his blogs, i have some thoughts going in my mind...

yesterday was pretty much uneventful. other than procrastinating and almost missing out on some appointments, it went well. spent a good part of the afternoon chatting with Dihiya.... for flatulence production, and matters that concern his heart and other parts *wicked evil grin*

day wore on... got hungry... ate at HapChang... bowl of congee, a few slices of century eggs, some Hakaw, machang, some tofu.... yeah, i wasn't hungry... went home as early as i could because baby wasn't feeling well... happy sleeping night... i get my best sleep when i'm with him, like always.

this morning, after talking to Dr. Doogie, and reading Dihiya's thoughts.. i got around to thinking... issues should only be settled between involved parties... a PR war is never a solution, nor is a dictation of effects via his majesty, the queen. No grammatical error there... i want to call him the Queen... because what the queen says goes. No points to consider. Once the queen decides, everyone should follow, depite messages via public relations and perceived images shown.

Grapes are sour. I'm assuming grapes will sour even more after the decision was made.... sadly, there are people who lack the maturity to accept things for what they are, and when they get hurt because of themselves, they perceive that the other party hurt them... sad to say, they only believe what they want to believe.

i have written a lot without revealing too much... may i borrow words from MARVEL comics by saying 'NUFF SAID

i've been thinking about what happened with my friends... and this song keeps running in my head... don't know why... i just have to get it out... the song applies to friends also...

"sometimes love just ain't enough"
Written by: Patty Smyth and Glen Burtnik

I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
just to have somebody by my side
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change

[chorus]
And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
there beside you where I used to lay

And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

i really hate it when my character is attacked...

it appears that a PR war has begun... someone has been talking about the breakup between DrDoogie and BabyR. It's news, yes, but the sad thing is, truth have been twisted. I am being blamed for the breakup. I am accused of playing favorites, spoiling someone, and doing hanky panky with one party. i was surprised that my brother asked me if this was true, but i don't blame him... news is convincing if it hits you first. confirmation comes after shock. i thank my brother for caring about what it would do to my relationship with my Baby.

it is sad that someone is taking on this new low. i'd rather not think that it's someone i know, but as of the moment, all fingers point to one person... well, maybe two... but the other one is more likely. i borrow words from dihiya when he said "the grapes are sour"

talked to Baby about it... he's always been my strength in times of trouble... he told me to take it the way i took the other intrigues... dismiss it as rumours because we're famous... which, i might say, is becoming apparent in the small circle of the "friends of dorothy - manila chapter" :P

dihiya has been another strong force to lean on. i thank god for allowing us to meet. despite his own crises, he has a heart so big that he helps other people out. his rewards await... i'm pretty sure they'll start pouring in once his crises are over.

as for others, i care not what they think now. the truth shall prevail.

as some celebrities would say... "inggit lang sila"

procrastination sucks... i've been putting off work for the longest time... now i have backlogs...

oh well... get things done today...

dare i write more?

i'm constantly worried about Dihiya... how things are suddenly happening in his life... i think he's too good a person to get that much trouble... wish i could help more...

sometimes i know things i wish i didn't know... sometimes i say things i wish i didn't say... but when i say things, ultimately, it's for the betterment of people concerned. i only wish that the truth will always be spoken to avoid certain things, like hurt and deceit.

i want to hear the truth from my friends... i don't want lies... i want the whole truth and not fractions... i don't want to have to be made to choose who is right or who isn't..

Friday... woke up early so we could get to the farm on time. Funny farm... well, at least the road trip leading to it is always funny... i swear, Dihiya was right in saying the trips are flatulence productions in overdrive.

on the farm... FOOD TRIP! I swear i'll never have that much food again... unless I go back and FIESTA with them again... maybe i will...

Dr. Doogie and Baby R made up Friday, after that major breakup...

Saturday... plans were laid out... some plans didn't push through... people got involved... while we were out having fun, some people were discussing things... end product? No more Dr. Doogie and Baby R.

I work in PR and advertising where the spin is most important... by the spin, i mean the exposure of certain things, editing of certain things and a portion of the truth comes out... I always thought that it only applies to big corporations.... recently, I discovered, much to my chagrin, that people are practicing that in real life... take the story of my psycho... the story of other people's psycho's and the story of dolt...

Dihiya, my baby, and I spent the rest of the evening, and a good part of the wee hours of the morning comforting Dr. Doogie...

Sunday... Baby and I spent practically the whole day with Dihiya and Dr.Doogie... Baby R dropped by... sad to see how two people who love each other can hurt each other so much... it's also sad to see that things don't always turn out how we want them to...

Got to hear both sides of the story. Not making any judgements. some things too personal to put in this blog... let's just say, once again, Baby and I have been placed under infamy. WHat the hell... let it loose... we've been accused of meddling, even compared to someone I never liked... to state things clearly, we didn't meddle in THAT way... if ever we did, it was to hear both sides out... to give both sides a fair chance at things, never letting it become a one-sided event... because of this, we were accused of spoiling someone... giving him a chance to be more assertive. Let me clear things out... We ARE NOT like that... we stand by our friends, no matter what, but we do not condone wrong behaviour. We would be the first to tell our friends what wrong they've done.

Oh well... just had to let that out...

Oh, and another thing... can I help it if i'm attractive? :P i've been getting this a lot... apparently enough to cause people to fight or go psycho... should i cover my facer and physique (whatever scrawniness there is) forever and not look good? is it my fault that people like me because of my no-nonsense personality?

I'm not boasting or anything... i just wish that life would be simpler than this, for me, and for my friends.