loose lips sink ships... that's the main thing about doogie... he tends to be too trusting and open, that he spills at the slightest prodding. somehow, he was still trusting the queen mother when the queen mother was helping ruin his reputation all the while...

recently, he came out to Drink's mom. He told Tita everything, including his affections for drink, and who among the gang lead the same lifestyle... Tita was cool with it, but a violation of trust was involved. I was surprised at first, but took it as it is. Some people didn't take well to it.

I understand where Doogie's coming from... he's enthusiastic about this new lifestyle. Too excited sometimes. A tendency to talk about things going around in his head. He's learning, though... guiding him... guiding Drink... guiding an e-mail friend... hoping to help, in my own little way...

my event's coming up. i'm panicking... need to focus...

queen mother speaks loads of crap. nuff said

sometimes i don't understand why we deny the fact that we love someone already... three recent cases of that... maybe four... i used to be like that...

maybe we're just too afraid to lose what "freedom" we currently have... not realizing that there's so much more to gain...

oh happy day....

baby got past his third interview with passing colors. I'm so proud of him. It's like a dream office where he'll be working in... flexi time, good pay, great training... and the office doesn't look like an office, it looks like a spa.

got the client business associates... they still don't think i lead an alternative lifestyle. oh well... i'm even being set-up for the blind date tomorrow.

dinner with Drink... gosh... he has so many problems... i feel we're partly to blame... we rushed his "indoctrination" into this world. Nothing kinky... we just showed him that people like us can be straight-natured, decent, and fun to be with. HElped him with a lot... i just wished i could've helped more... in due time, maybe.

I understand where he's coming from.. i went through the same thing, I was just lucky I got more time to space things out. I sure hope he's ok already... his parents are eager to meet his friends... he told his mom about me being able to see/sense with my third eye... i know my Baby didn't want me to talk about it, but being the polite guest I had to oblige... sigh... caught in the middle...

went to Dihiya's after... talked to him and doogie... Discussed the "indecent proposal" of a "talent scout" with Doogie... VERY fishy... oh well... feeling everything's not in order... hope things work out soon with regards to this, though...

talked to dihiya about the virus and the queen mother... i'm still quite suspicious as to why they pop up like that all of a sudden...life's like that... i just hope things remain quiet... i have a feeling they're just waiting for something to happen to make news about... i doubt they'll get any...

til then... aurevoir

haven't been writing in a while... work matters keeping me busy... plus the fact that i rarely go home and internet is just a way to access e-mail....

so, what's been happening? i can't remember much... gosh.. the last entry was tuesday...

Thursday night: wanted to watch a movie but we were too late... ended up hanging at Dihiya's when the Queen mother arrived. I was civil, but i was obviously not comfortable with his presence. I think he felt that. I mean, why should i be comfortable with his presence after the accusations. Ended up drinking in Cable Car. Doogie ended up sleepig at Drink's place. I slept at Baby's. Woke up late on Friday and Baby decided not to go to work...

Friday night: Oh, happy day! Spent the whole day with My baby.... saw monster's ball... realized how HAlley Berry still has that effect on me... movie was dragging but it had so many underlying issues that made certain emotions surface in me. Oh well... got to meet my Bro's new date. QUite a nice guy. Let's call him TISOY. Tisoy is 27 years old, pretty much decided on his life and he's a very nice guy. I think Bro loves him, but Bro may not be ready for a relationship. Dihiya had to bail, so The six of us: me, My Baby, Doogie, Drink, Bro and Tisoy, went over to Baby's place to watch DVDs... we all fell asleep... Bro and Tisoy left around 5AM, Doogie and Drink about 30 minutes after that.

Anyway... saturday, talked to Drink in the morning and assured him of some things he's having trouble dealing with. Talked with Doogie also. Saw "Sum of All Fears". AMazing movie... after the movie, we met up with Milo, Jonela, and Astro. Got pissed with Tequila Joe's, El Pueblo staff. Gosh, why can't people provide good service anymore? Can't they distinguish between paying customers and scrubs? I suggest, if you plan to eat there, stay away from the second floor. Apologies were given, but not after I told them off. I say boycott the place.

Doogie ended up staying the night. Got a chance to talk to him about some issues. He agreed not to toe the line in his pseudo-relationship for the meantime. I'm glad.

Training was cancelled on SUnday, and I got to visit Baby's church. Very friendly people, very close knit. I'd like to go there sometime and grow in faith. Drink had fun today... his mom put make-up on Doogie who seemed to be enjoying too much... tsk tsk... badingding.... hehehheehe

Did some work today... met up with my client who gave me more work... more work = more money. WEnt to Dihiya's after. Had to talk, about other people's issues... my issues, his issues... nice friendly talk... mostly done in the car. I think most guys get a lot of talking done in the car... maybe it gives us a sense of comfort that we're the only people to hear... that we don't have to look at each other eye-to-eye...

Went to Manila's food festival... cheap food... lousy service... what can i say? you're in the philippines... grin and bear it.

Monday... start of a new day... watch out for more :)