my life is a telenovela. yes, you heard it right. i am living a telenovela life... my mother lived her telenovela life, and i'm here to make the telenovela longer, albeit with my own issues. Maybe one day i'll write it all down and sell it to the networks.

anyway...

i went out with my girlfriend last night. i introduced her to my friends, whom i got to know through my ex. my girlfriend knows my ex. She likes his company. When she mentioned that to my friends, one of them says something like "well, he's kind of lost now". This statement shocked my girlfriend. it didn't come from me... i guess it gave my girlfriend a better view of my ex.

My girlfriend is a very wonderful person. She trusts people implicitly. That is why i don't want to ever hurt her. I personally vowed to forget all about my boys as long as we're in this relationship together. She does now know this vow, nor will i let her know it.... I just want to be honest to her the way she's honest with me. I love her to bits, but she knows the rumor-mongerer. Now, if she will get hurt if and when i take legal action, i will have to ask her to let me go because i don't want to drag her into this. Somebody kill me if i hurt her.

anyway, as i blog, i'm talking to a girl who used to have a crush on my ex. she's asking how things are... i gave her the gist of it and the conversation transpired as follows:

HER: whoa...grabeh na pala

ME: wala lang... it's a simple choice between people he can trust and people he can't. he chose people he can't trust

HER: cmon...bakit ba nagkaganito na? u and your ex used to be really close. things are happening too fast

ME: i have no say in the matter anymore. he was supposed to prove that he could still be a friend. he can't.

HER: i think u guys are having a misunderstanding

ME: he doesn't understand me, he never tried. that's why i refuse to understand him anymore

*end of conversation*

oh well... so much for the blog for the day... i'm on antibiotics so i'm feeling a little weak.... stupid cough