it's funny how people tend to hide from realities in life by denial. it seems more than 50% of people are living in denial.

other people say they're the best friend of so-and-so when the truth is they're in love with that person (who they cannot attain, anyway) while others resort to name-calling, when they, themselves, are that... imagine a faggot calling other people faggots. don't they feel the boomerang hit of their comments?

take for example: a swishy (read: faggot) gay guy (A) gets irritated with another swishy gay guy(B). A will call B a faggot, when he himself is a faggot. a faggot calling a faggot a faggot to make the other faggot look bad. HAHAHAHAHAHA

i used to hate calling people ugly because i felt i wasn't really handsome until i realized i'm not that bad looking after all. hehehehehe. conceited statement, but, yes, i'm not ugly. i am a beautiful person inside and out who is not afraid of the truth.

anyway, i'm glad to have found friends who are there for me when the going gets tough. friends who are honest enough to tell me when i've made a mistake and friends who support me when i'm wrong.

i miss my soul brother. yes, soul brother whose blog i have access to :P he sent me a voice mail last sunday making lambing. i haven't been able to update him on the situtations, but based on his blog, he's happy. i'm happy for him and i'm happy for the guy he's dating. i had a feeling before that they'd end up together the way they were teasing each other hehehehe. bro, if you're reading this, let's have dinner or dessert sometime: you, the guy you're dating, me, and my hunny. i just wish we can set our schedules soon.

anyway, yesterday, i asked hunny's good friend and my friend, too, regarding my hunny's request to talk to my ex. he brought it up with hunny and my hunny apologized for being stubborn about that. she also apologized for hurting me. i assured her that she needn't apologize because i was just a bit confused. i already explained to her why i was taking my stand on not talking to my ex.

this is already a pretty long blog... i'll be going out to meet my hunny in a little while. til next time