things that make me happy

i was depressed last night, but i already spoke to my older sister and my mom. i know how my mom feels already, but what's more important is that my sister and i have told her how we feel and how she might be able to teach my siblings a lesson in life.

anyway, last night, i was thinking of things that make me happy. i've come up with a few things:
1. i have real friends who stick with me through thick and thin
2. i have my own business and i pretty much own my time
3. i'm doing good in my own business
4. i have a clean conscience because i am not hiding anything or lying to anyone
5. i have never resorted or even thought about exchanging sexual favors for material things
6. i am able to help people in my own little way
7. i am not that apathetic
8. i am blessed with wonderful nieces
9. i am blessed with a wonderful girlfriend
10. i am not dependent on artificial substances. (i've been cigarette free for over a week now, and counting)
11. i see the world in a clearer light than i used to
12. i have been given the courage to face the world head on
13. i have a real way of helping people with the training i've received
14. i am not a slave to my office
15. i have a wonderful mother who's always there to help me and be behind me in all my decisions.
16. my relationship with my older sister is getting better
17. i don't have B.O. (read: body odor) because i've been brought up with wonderful hygiene

the list actually goes on... i guess these little things i have to think about more often ;)

feeling like a parent

i feel like such a parent now. my mom has given up on my siblings' way of life and is just supporting them with whatever they do. i feel that right now it is mine and my elder sister's burden to kick my siblings' asses to set them straight.

my brother refuses to work. he's spent weeks job hunting only to quit after the first day of training because he doesn't like the people there and that the people there are constantly talking. i'd like to give him a whack on the head.

my younger sister is too full of herself. she's a major flirt and she's a spoiled brat. my mom refuses to let her take the public transport system because of the way she moves and flirts with guys fearing that she'll get raped one of these days. i say let her dress more conservatively and let her commute.

i don't know why my mom is so scared of letting them grow up. they're not babies anymore. my mom is so afraid of letting them go the way they let me go. when my elder sister got married, they were forced to let her go, but they still baby her every now and then. i'm the most independent so far, but i still rely on them for so many things. i don't pay rent, i don't pay for utilities or food.

i don't know what to do anymore. if it were up to me, i'd tell my sister to just get married and get out of the house, that way i'll get my own room and she'll be out of our life. i'd also tell my brother to get a job and stick with it to get exposed to what real life is.

mars attacks

i saw mars last night. it was so cool despite the slightly cloudy sky. i wish i could've taken a photo, though. the best part was that i was with Hunny last night when we saw mars.

retail therapy and shopping

i was on my way home last night when i happened to pass by Designer Depot. I suddenly had the urge to buy clothes there. i'm too lazy to continue this... i'll write about this some other time and maybe submit it to a newspaper for publication.

random ramblings

i'm just waiting for my Hunny to call me and let me know our plans. We're supposed to meet up with friends, any maybe hang out at her rooftop to catch a glimpse of Mars. Yes, it's supposed to be showing up again, tonight.

I'm a bit worried about her. She's been getting stomach aches lately. I don't know if it's an effect of quitting smoking cold turkey or from a virus. I would really want her to get a physical check-up.

Anyway, i was reading some friends' blogs and came across this issue about a plagiarist. I will not give the plagiarist the dignity of linking her, but there's a campaign against her which can be accessed through http://bloggerpower.myoptimind.com/

gotta go. posting more. going out :P