heart breaker you got the best of me and i just keep on coming back incessantly... that's a line from a song from an artist i used to like... before she changed her image from soul singer to slut.

anyway, i have a feeling that's what people are singing to me now... i break hearts but not deliberately... i've been dating, but when i do go out on dates, i make sure to be honest and let them know that i don't have any intentions of being serious. kince and i discussed this... and this conversation sort of put things in perspective

kince: well, you do that to people.
kince13: and you know it.
kince13: (stop ego tripping. i'm just telling you the blunt truth as a friend. you don't have to read into it. haha!)
me: i refuse to believe that i do that to people...
kince: okay, let's rephrase that.
me: i guess i project an aura of someone who they imagine to be perfect but realize later on, when there's a relationship already, that i'm not that perfect person
kince: coming from someone who's known you four years
kince: my view of you has slighted minutely, at most.
kince: in the four years that i've known you
kince: i don't see you as perfect, nor have i ever
kince: and i don't think people DO see you as perfect, but as you really are
kince: someone particularly special.

i am not perfect, i know that. i just hope people realize that before they tell me that i am perfect for them, because i will never be perfect for anyone but myself... i don't even find myself complete :)

anyway... more thoughts next time... sleepy already