last night, i did something ultimately unselfish, again... i don't know if it's stupid of me or if i just cannot afford to be an evil person .

M and I have been going out for a little over a week now... and I think I've found someone I really like and someone who is perfect for me.

But I have my own personal demons to face. Despite having the perfect one for me, I am not ready to commit for fear that I have more explorations to do and more things to experience.

I let M go. I cannot afford to let M get hurt while I chase away my personal demons.

Selfish or stupid? You tell me...