PAIN

I never knew i'd be able to feel this kind of pain.. I am suffering from pain that was brought about by myself, but it's partly brought about by something that happened.

What does it take? I always give everything my all, but it all seems lacking.

I'm just thankful for friends who never let me down.

I just want to crawl under a rock and be a hermit the rest of my life

looooong day today.... slept pretty late... woke up at 6:30 am. went to chinatown, faced manila traffic, went to the airport, saw THE VILLAGE, packed some stuff...now, i'm loaded with writing assignments...

i'm tired, i'll prolly take a nap and work after.... BUT FIRST... something funny...

Was looking around for parking space in ParkSquare1.... was making a turn but not really looking at where i'm going, was looking at a particular parking slot, since the way was wide open....

...suddenly...

I HIT SOMETHING! It was those yellow post things that had cement things at the bottom... the funny thing was that when i hit it, it flew and hit a motorcycle... amazingly, it didn't fall, nor did the motorcycle fall over. There was no damage to any of the involved vehicles (mine included).

When I hit the post thing, i stopped to check if there was any damage. Evette (who was riding with me) was worried people would see and she started screaming "go! go! go!" to get me out of the crime scene. We were laughing our heads of in the car and the car wash guy ran to check the damage on my car... he was laughing also. I had to get a carwash for two reasons:
1. get my super dirty car washed
2. sort of bribe the car wash guy to keep quiet.

It was hilarious because we were laughing the whole time... and so was the car wash guy...

I have a "marketable" story... but, i'll save that for another day.

saw cinderella story yesterday... was supposed to be a feel good, kilig movie.

the whole time the people in the theater were excited about the final outcome of the cinderella story, i was worried about "cinderella's" acceptance letter to princeton, which was thrown out by the evil stepmom.

there was one scene i liked, which i hope can happen in real life... when they were both in the gazebo... when they started to dance without music, then the musicians in the area who were packing up started playing music for them to dance to.... but i don't think that will happen to me anytime soon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Today we celebrate a few birthdays... my grandmother's and my cousin's. The whole mom's side of the family came here. They were all talking to me about my show and how i looked good in it, how i did a great job of hosting it. Yes, i had an ego boost. To add to that, I did a pretty ok rendition of Kailangan Kita. We had lotsa fun today. Played badminton and sang karaoke... I played with my nieces and nephews. They don't know me, but we had fun, nonetheless :) I was basically a gigantic 5 year old.

I got an unexpected and late birthday gift from my sister. She's so sweet now, even if she used to be a bitch. She gave me an ASTROBOY WALL CLOCK!!!!! My eyes went wide when I saw them.

I didn't speak to uncles i didn't like. Yes, I was a snob, but better not speaking to them than saying something bad, right?

sheesh... i'm becoming an internet addict again. I should stop... I should focus on paperwork... will do after i log off ;)