i had a deep conversation wtih my friend choi last night. he pointed out that i enjoy the attention i'm getting and that i am enjoying my ego-tripping. I am enjoying, but i only want to do that when i'm sure that i'm not hurting anyone. choi brought my attention to someone who may have not gotten the point before and i've e-mailed that person to make sure that the point was delivered.

i also e-mailed someone i fought with so that my point will be better understood.

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i found this on a friendster bulletin... there may be some grammatical errors, but i'm posting it verbatim...it's quite funny and it's quite true...

TOP TEN REASONS FOR GUYS AND GIRLS TO HAVE A GAY BEST FRIEND

**Girls**
1. You can shop all day long and you won't hear any complain that you usually get from your boyfriend.
2. When your buying clothes, you dont have to rely on your boyfriend's lame ass "that looks good on you" comment when it really doesn't.
3. You don't need to worry about color combination for the rest of your life.
4. You can actually have a conversation about Hollywood celebrities and forget about sports!
5. Finally...someone who you can watch a chick flick with! It does suck when you're the only one
saying "awww" when watching "Sleepless In Seattle".
6. You get that intimate talk with boys that you don't usually get from a "straight" one. "Like oh my
god, you are so right sister!"
7. Hello!...Hair care products?
8.You can talk about his male anatomy and it wouldn't bother him.
9. He'll tell you which guy is cute and which one is not...so you'll never end up with the ugly one.
10. You can always assure that he'll never steal your boyfriend! (i.e. assuming your boyfriend is
straight.)

**Guys**
1. Having problems with tying those neckties...I thought so.
2. Your girlfriend said your not intimate enough and you need to open up? This might be your
solution!
3. Fashion problems? Clothes don't match? just can't get the right item?...then he's your man!
4. Absolutely hate shopping? They'll glad to do it for you! Now you can actually buy an anniversary
gift your girlfriend will love!
5. Now you can actually fix up a dinner for your girlfriend and not over cook the pasta!
6. Stuck in the sports world? Need celeb info? Now you'll actually know who's JLo's new husband
and your chick will be happy that you know Bennifer is so yesterday!
7. Need dates...just ask him...he can refer you to up to 200 single chicks...he has no use of them
anyways!
8. They hang out with the hottest chicks ever! Did I make myself clear enough!
9. The easiest way to a girl's heart is not in her stomach...it's through her gay best friend!
10. You can assure that he'll never steal your girlfriend! (i.e. assuming he's really gay like what
he said he is...)

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ego trip! stranger found me cute, followed me around, treated me to tea (i declined coffee) and has been obsessed with ever since. caught quite a few people eyeing me in the mall, too :)

met up with new friends. got medication for my cough... resting tonight.

WAHOO!!! despite the fact that i'm haggard this week, i still look cute! :D

been coughing for a week now... it's usually normal for my cough to last that long... but this morning my sputum had blood. i hope it's nothing serious.

anyway, someone who has wronged me so many times has been apologizing... it's hard to accept an apology if the "crime" is repetitive, isn't it?

this morning, i was so scared that i thought i'd die very soon because i've coughed out blood.... that led me to form words i've been trying to form a long time ago... at least the words came out coherently earlier... so, i just typed it on my phone and kept it for reference purposes.

this afternoon, i got a call from that person, apologizing and asking me if some favors extended before would still be okay with me. i replied in the affirmative, but also confirmed that i'm still miffed about the whole thing. i never got to send the message i typed, i was told though that a letter was written for me.

anyway, i'm at a mall now and someone approached me... hehehe... flattering... will try to get to know him a little... >:-)

"pwede bang mag-apply?...seriously"

someone posted that anonymously... i wonder who the person is. apply as what? who are you?

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been on a 2-day shoot... super dead tired. more wokr to come this week. i wish i had more money now.

why is it that when you have so much to do, you suddenly don't feel like working and you procrastinate like crazy?

The dictionary defines a friend as a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard. I guess this goes beyond that. A friend is someone you share a special relationship with. Someone who you trust and trusts you in the same light.

For me, when I classify someone as my friend, that person becomes, automatically, a part of my life, as close as family. A friend is someone who I care for, worry about and, generally, take care of. Naturally, I would expect that person to trust me and keep me posted with what’s happening in his/her life. Such is the friendship I share with my two best friends, Joy and Chuck. Such is the friendship I share with my close friends: Al and Dein, to name a few. Some friends would even say I’m worse than a boyfriend when it comes to giving advice, asking for details, and being protective.

I’ve always been trusting of people. I easily offer my friendship to people. I guess that’s one reason why people always take advantage of that. I’ve had so-called-friends who: 1. treat me like a bank, 2. treat me as an advice columnist, 3. a go-to-guy, 4. simple someone to hang out with when no one else is around. These so-called-friends have treated me like a doormat. Honestly, I try to treat them as friends, but when push comes to shove, I would have to think twice.

Is it different to have an ex as a friend? I guess there should be no difference in treatment. I expect the same treatment my friends give me: Trust, honesty, updates, and sharing of lives.

What do you do if your friendship is mistaken for a sign that you’re after another person, that, you’re bitter over the break-up? What if that person refuses to believe you because that person has refused to believe you ever since you got to know each other?

The solution is to stop offering friendship, right?

I’m left with no choice. I’ve always extended a hand of friendship to my exes, but none of them ever listen to me. Whenever I offer advice, or friendship, it’s taken the wrong way. Whenever I offer my point of view, it’s never seen from there, it’s always seen from a defensive stance.

I can’t say I didn’t try to be a friend. I did give friendship a chance. But what’s a friendship without trust, right?

been going out... having fun...

recently, i went surfing... blog-hopping... i just found out that i've been replaced already. yeah, i'm over the past relationship, but there's that part of me that feels hurt because i've been replaced and hurt that i wasn't told when that was our agreement.

right now, i guess what's more painful is the fact that i extend a hand in a fully-trusting relationship expecting to be trusted back... but that trust was not returned... not in the same way. i do feel betrayed, but we do have our own lives already.

when it rains it pours.