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this week has been a blast... went to the UST area to sort through comics and get stuff.... i got Dr. Seuss' The Cat in The Hat for free :D

went and had my psychic consultancy... turned out positive... decided to learn about my gifts and let them develop instead of running away from them.

later last night, my mom brought me to this guy who's supposedly possessed by the Sto.Nino. He "closed" my third eye... but i doubt that he did.

anyway, i gotta stop procrastinating and start working already.

What do you do when you feel that someone or something has been following you around? What do you do if that someone or something is not quite visible to you? I've been stalked by this being for a few days now, and it's quite disturbing. I sense his presence all over. In my room, in my bathroom, in my car, outside my car, all over. I had to resort to sleeping with my parents last night.

I had a tarot reading from a friend last night. I had to find out of this being was still following me and why it was following me. I never got the answers to my questions, but I did get the following information:
1. this is all part of a circle of karma... from my own actions and karma from anger people feel towards me
2. i have 3 "punishments". The first was M, second is this, an the third is yet to come.
3. in the course of these "punishments", my third eye will fully be opened.

I have found out that I am currently on the 3rd degree of my psychic powers. By the end of these three "punishments" I shall be on the 5th degree: one of the highest. The 4th degree will allow me to hear them clearly. The 5th degree means I will be seeing them as clear as I see other people. I will be able to determine how they passed away.

I feel that it is not fair that I am not given a choice with the circumstances. I am left no choice whether or not I want these gifts. I don't even know what I did to warrant these karmic "punishments".

My friends can stand witness as to how good a person I've been... I have made wrong decisions in my past, but I know I have atoned for them. Doesn't helping others counteract my bad karma?

I am so confused now... I was told that I could not reject these gifts because the more I reject them, the worse things will become. I am leaning towards accepting these gifts, they could be fun... but i definitely have to learn how to control them and learn how to shield myself.

Everything I am experiencing right now goes against my religious upbringing. It does not make sense. I don't know who to contact from church to help me. I've tried talking to them before, but all I've received is a sharp rebuke and a reminder to keep my faith and rebuke these things that bother me through the Holy Name... No one from church understands me because no one from church is experiencing what I am experiencing.

With God's Grace I shall be able to get through this...

i'm beginning to hate my netscape browser. it hangs every now and then. anyway... i should go into detail of the scary things that have been happening the past few days.

what started as (what we thought was) a simple haunting turned into a full-fledged ghostly stalking. after that scary saturday night, we all went home and tried to get some sleep. little did I realize that i was followed home.

Sunday evening proved to be scary for me because I felt a presence near me in my house. The sanctity of my room was not even respected. My room was INVADED... well, not really, but the presences seem to have free access to visit my room. I have not been able to sleep without the lights and the tv on for the past few days.

Last night, I really had to go out because I felt the overpowering and appaling presence of the black-scary-man. He rode in my car all the way to where I was going. I couldn't drive my car properly and I had to keep the cab light on the whole time.

After talking about things, I confirmed with Toff that it was the same black-scary-guy that haunted us saturday night. I also confirmed with a friend of mine who reads the tarot that this guy was, indeed, following me. And, get this, the guy was following me because of the following:
1. I'm remind him of someone from his past
2. I stirred him up from somewhere
3. He is angry at me for one reason or another.

Thank goodness for Toff who graciously exorcised the ghost from my car with the St. Francis of Assissi stampita and a few prayers. He told me that the guy was really angry that he was being exorcised from the place. Stuff in my glove compartment was being banged about.

After the exorcism, we drove to Whiteplains. I couldn't believe it! The guy followed beside my car all the while.

After a relaxing few hours with Toff and Amanda, I stayed with Toff in a gas station to wait for my brother to meet me and drive with me. I think the ghost guy laid off for a while.

When my brother and I got home, I told him what was happening. He was extremely cynical about the stampitas, my scapular, and my experience... but I don't care... I feel safer with these.

This morning, another friend who reads the tarot cards said that I was a part of the person's life, which is why he was after me...

GAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!! I Think this is one halloween to remember.

I needed to get out of the house earlier, so I asked Chuck and Toff where they were... Chuck's schedule was iffy so I decided to meet up with Toff, instead.

Toff and I discussed his concerns, and he helped me with my situation. He gave me St. Francis of Assissi cards and a scapular. I don't know what I would do without Toff...

I'll probably write more about this in the morning, when the sun is out and I feel safe and secure. Right now, I think i'm still dealing with some trauma.

CHRISTMAS WISHES

yes, yes... despite the fact that i don't feel the christmas spirit yet, i want to make a christmas list of what i want... some may be impossible, but, it never hurts to make wishes:

1. 15 Million Pesos (not for me but for my parents)
2. a round trip ticket to the United States to visit friends and relatives, including pocket money and visa arrangements
3. my own flat/apartment/condo. semi furnished if possible
4. three three-piece suits... in black, dark gray, and another color
5. my own office
6. my own jollibee franchise
7. a new car
8. a Sony Erricson P910i or another good PDA Phone with camera
9. a new laptop. preferrably a Mac
10. a vacation for my mom and dad
11. a 50,000.00 shopping spree
12. more smart and generous clients
13. more cool projects 14. beautiful dates who will agree to go to bed with me also. HAHAHAHAHA

there are so much more one can wish for... but i guess these will do for now... i'll add more soon.

btw, special shout out to my "shobe" you're holding up just fine... you made a wonderful decision. now all that's left to do is be the playing coach. ;)

SIXTH SENSE story

i want to write about stuff toffer and i saw this weekend... i have to get it out of my head...

first, driving on C-5 from Fort. We had a "passenger" in the car... after that, toffer saw an old lady with arms outstretched, hair flowing, and hovering in front of the car. I didn't get to see her, but i realized how scary she was when i read toffer's mind

second, in my old village, both of us saw this guy... he was really black.. had curly hair and scary eyes. he had his face up to the window of toffer's car. he really freaked both of us out... one minute toffer and i were sitting in the car talking, the next toffer was shouting and clinging to me in fright. i happened to look up the window and saw the guy. i don't know how he went away... i guess our shouting at him and telling him to go away worked.

that done, we had to stay awake because my car was parked in that area and we both did not dare get the car back until the sun was up.

toffer didn't tell me about the third one yet...

up to this day, i have a feeling the scary man followed me home... i still sense his presence sometimes. it scares me a lot.

i seem to be having theme weekends.... remember the wild wild weekend? well, a few weeks back, i had a wholesome weekend. we spent the weekend playing playstation, watching movies, having coffee, and being mallrats. that was the same week i met another soul brother, toffer.

toffer and i hit it off the moment we met. so many things in common... it's as if toffer's a younger version of me... albeit so much richer. hahahaa

anyway... this week, i had a family weekend. spent time with both sides of the family.... dad's side is weird because we don't know each other...it's as if it was a reunion of strangers. i'm proud to say, though, that i was the perfect PR man... i was talking to everyone even if i hardly knew them.

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last night was extremely scary for me and toffer. apparently, when we're together and he's extremely emotional, our psychic powers become enhanced.... we saw stuff we didn't really want to see... with being freaked out and everything ,we ended up waiting for the sun to come out before going home.

fun, yet scary.... HAPPY HALLOWEEN TO EVERYONE