getting old

i'm turning 29 in a few weeks...might as well be turning 30.

actually, i don't feel that way... except now...

what's life to offer a 29 year old jack of all trades?

a new look on dating

i've written about my view on relationships and commitment... i'm not ready, nor do i think i will be ready to be in a relationship.

last night, i was set up with someone. we hit it off... we seem to have a lot in common. one great thing in common is that we both don't feel the need to be in a relationship-relationship. What we both agreed on is that we would be willing to venture into a relationship if it was a non-clingy, non-restricting relationship. No "where are you? who are you with? why don't you have time for me" relationship. Basically, it's a deep friendship with benefits. We both don't have time for a commitment.

We stayed up until the wee hours of the morning, just talking, laughing, sharing... fun talk... not like others who want to jump the bed as soon as we meet. this could be a new chapter in my life... then, again... maybe not.

wild wild east

two nights ago, i attended a birthday party of a friend on the east side. the organizers rented a hotel unit.

early on, I felt that there were a few people interested in me. Ego aside, they made me feel their interest in me, which was confirmed by another friend of mine. anyway, after dinner and some chitchat, drinks started pouring... we all had vodka shots, which was cool. i don't get that drunk with vodka. we had to run to the store a few times to get more drinks.

despite my early warnings that nobody should give me gin because of my internal allergy to it, someone did. My stomach turned, i threw up a lot and i had no energy left to go home. I ended up sleeping on the couch.

The last thing i remember was someone propping my head up with a pillow and someone giving me a blowjob. Right smack in the middle of the party!! I was too weak to do anything. I couldn't even talk anymore. I have mixed reactions to this... first, I feel bad because someone took advantage of me... but on the other hand, i would have wanted that blowjob when i was sober. I mean, if someone was giving you a blowjob, you might as well have enjoyed it sober, right?

I woke up and the sun was blazing already. I had to rush home beacause I still had a ton of work to do. All in all, it was a fun experience meeting all these new people.

to the rescue

somehow, when it rains, it pours... i have that tendency to rush to a friend's side when help and company is needed.... yesterday, had to rush to the help of 3 friends. Managed to help them all... i guess shouldn't resign from my stint as a superhero yet, huh?