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i've vowed to spend less time online and try to focus more on work, which includes going through a tall pile of newspapers. I've even replaced my computer chair with an ugly monobloc. it didn't work! i just ended up with a stiff back and a sore body. oh, well... at least i'm forced to stop facing the computer every once in a while to force my body to stretch.

on the other hand... my scriptwriting work has led to me replacing Noel Rayos for a voice over stint. Imagine that!

I used to hate how I sound on the mic. I seriously did. It doesn't help if some people think that my voice sounds funny. Just this year, i got affirmations that my voice sounds good. the best compliment I got was the one I got this evening. People from the office of the company i'm doing the event for heard my voice over and said that they liked my voice. They're even considering me to be the voice of their PABX (phone) system. Cool, huh? To top it all, I'll get paid to be a voice over talent. Not as much as Noel Rayos, but still... this would open up more doors for me.

Now if only i could stop my chinese genes from kicking in, get back my Ls and Rs and stop myself from stuttering. :P

Geez... where do i start?

I've been so busy the past few days, i've barely slept. I've been catching up on work... a whole lot of it...

Anyway, last blog, i was considering C... I think i was mistaken there. I'm glad i'm still playing the dating game. C is just too... how shall i put it?... clingy. REALLY clingy. I mean, sweet text messages are cool... but someone who keeps asking how I am every 4 hours? 3 or more calls in a day? I am getting really claustrophobic!

Maybe I am not relationship material. Maybe i am... truth be told, i'm enjoying dating. I don't want to be tied down for now. I think my commitment-phobia is jumping back into my life.

What I miss about being in a relationship are the following:
1. being monogamous
2. having someone to be with after the end of a long day
3. real cuddling... not just post-bed cuddling... but cuddling for the sake of cuddling
4. knowing that someone is taking care of you, only you, in that special way

What I don't miss about being in a relationship:
1. being tied down
2. the petty fights
3. the lies, accusations, and paranoia

I'm in limbo now... I need to find someone who is older... more mature... someone who can tame me, but will also allow me to be wild... someone who will hold my hand when I need it... someone who will hold me close when i'm scared...

sadly, that someone does not exist...

as i am blogging, i'm having a YM conversation with someone who is not quite a stalker but is not quite an acquaintance yet...

i have a hunch and most of my hunches are right...

i smell trouble...